Challenges

     The heat, no Microsoft Word on the laptop, and my car have been some challenges for me. My first full day here... I didn't want those things to stop me, but after almost passing out from heat exhaustion on the subway and everyone telling me they only accept online applications, I felt defeated. But I must remind myself that God says I'm more than a conqueror.

         My name is not the easiest to pronounce, so I unintentionally crippled myself saying I have no chance because my name is "too ghetto". "No one will hire me based on my name." Well that's a lie, that I've entertained too long. I have to pray that negative thinking out my head and believe that if God is for me than who shall be against me. It doesn't matter what my name is, I have the favor of God all over me. I'll get the job and Jesus will get the glory. I'm trusting that God will make a way like he says in Isaiah 43:19,"I'll make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert."

         People tell me the hardest part was me coming up here, and I've done that, well done. But the hardest part for me seems to be the wait, when it seems like nothing is happening. "I have to just trust and believe in You. Through You I can do all things. Nothing is impossible." Over the past week I've felt myself become anxious and overwhelmed. I've even questioned my decision to move here. But it's nothing but the enemy trying to hold me back. Today I spent some real QT time with the Lord, and I was given peace and reassurance. I spoke to my dad and brother and they encouraged me. I listened to a live streaming of Thomasville COGIC with Elder Allen and that was refreshing. "The only way I'll survive this is with you Lord." I need God. Since I've been up here, I've read a little here and there. I've had quick prayers in between this & that, but no, that's not good enough. I have to really spend time with God because He's the director of my steps and without Him I'm lost, confused, and overwhelmed. In the Book of Proverbs,Solomon says Wisdom is more precious than gold. We should seek it, search for it like treasure, and ask God for it. I need it, and I want to recognize and value it for what it's worth. That's my prayer!